My Nightmare

Jun 15, 2018

Most of you know about some of the medical issues I have had to deal with over the past several years. It has been a very difficult time for me, truly a nightmare, and has left me disabled in some ways.

You see me sit for all or part of the Eucharistic Prayer of the Mass. That has been because of nerve damage in my left leg. My right shoulder is still paralyzed. The neurologist says that both arms are partially paralyzed. No part of either arm is getting more than 75% of the nerve action it should have.

An MRI of my brain indicates that I have some brain damage from TIAs (Transient Ischemic Attacks). These have affected my short term memory. I have one stent in the back of my heart—thank God it is only one.

For 20 years I took NSAIDs for arthritis, which was diagnosed when I was 15. The NSAID’s burned a hole in my stomach causing internal bleeding. It took five days and a few transfusions before I was stable. I should be on blood thinners because of the heart disease (stent and TIAs), but the doctors will not let me have blood thinners because of the previous bleed.

I live with constant pain. I have not had a pain-free day in 15 years. I need replacements of both knees, my left shoulder and my right wrist.

Believe it or not, there is still more. The worst of all has been the depression.

Next week I will pick up here and discuss how I have dealt (or not dealt) with this nightmare emotionally and spiritually.



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